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 There are moments in life when the heart splits itself in two:  One part reaches forward, aching for what once felt safe, the known familiar. It remembers the warmth, the laughter, the quiet certainly of what seemed forever. It longs for the road that led to comfort, to belonging, to the sense that you were exactly where you were meant to be. The other part pulls back, whispering caution, warning that the same road may lead only to old pain, to the fractures you thought you had mended, to the remainders of yourself in pieces. And so we stand, caught between the longing to return and the fear of repeating. It isn't always about a person, sometimes it's about a dream, a path, a version of ourselves we thought we'd become. Sometimes it's about love, sometimes it's about the life we imagined and lost. Sometimes it's a whisper of who we were, calling from a past we can never quite step back into. The details change, but the feeling is the same: two voices inside, ea...

The Data Behind Small Steps: Living My Kaizen

 There’s a concept in Japanese Philosophy called Kaizen - it translates to continuous improvement, the idea that consistent, small actions compound into meaningful transformation over time. When I first read about it, something clicked. Maybe because I came from a background in data and business analytics, where improvement is also built through small interactions - test, learn, refine, repeat. We don’t aim for perfection in one go; we build better systems through cycles. In many ways, that’s what this year has been for me - one long, human experiment in Kaizen. At the end of January, I came back from Brisbane with uncertainty in my suitcase. My studies had been interrupted. My plans felt paused. I wasn’t sure how to measure progress anymore, because the usual markers - grades, jobs, structure - had blurred. But over time, I learned that even in personal growth, the data is there - it’s just quieter. It’s in the number of days you show up for yourself, the new things you learn, th...

Dante’s Exile and Mine: Finding Meaning in Loss

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In the 14th century, the poet Dante Alighieri was banished from his beloved city of Florence. He lost his home, his community, and the life he believed was his. Out of that wound, he began writing THE DIVINE COMEDY - A Journey Through Hell, Purgatory and Paradise. What could have been only desire became the foundation for one of the greatest works of literature. When Dante was banished from Florence, he wasn’t just removed from a city. He was stripped of identity, stability and belonging. The exile wasn’t only geographical; it was spiritual. It forced him into a life where the very ground beneath his feet no longer felt like his. I think about that often, because I too live with a sense of Exile. Mine is not from a city, but from the life I thought I was supposed to have. I was meant to follow a path that unfolded with certainty, to carry my hopes forward with steady steps, to stand without wavering. Instead the road fractured midway, and what once felt whole now lies unfinished. I...

The Room of The Mind, The Two Selves and The Ghosts at The Table

 The room of my mind is never empty. It shifts with the seasons, sometimes warm, washed in gold, with open windows that let laughter wander in from the distant places. Other times, it is winter there. The curtains drawn, the air still, a silence that feels heavy enough to touch. I know every corner of this room, the desk where I write the thoughts I am too afraid to speak, the worn chair which remembers the weight of my tiredness, the shelves where I place pieces of the past I am not ready to let go. Somewhere in this room, two selves live together. One self remembers the years when love travelled across oceans. The way conversations could steady a restless night, the hours of laughter. She is soft-eyed, unguarded, certain that what was built over years could not be undone by a single season apart. The other stands by the door with her coat on. She remembers the night the truth arrived - uninvited, unyielding, and edged with shapes her mind had never dared to imagine. She knows the...

How to Train Your AI (To Think With You, Not Just for You)

  AI is always seen as a productivity tool - something to help you do more. But what if it could help you think better? I started using it to feel clearer in my thoughts. The shift isn’t just functional, it’s architectural. I didn’t plan to. But somewhere between asking it questions and unpacking my thoughts, I realised it's not just giving answers - it reflects what I believe, avoid or don’t yet understand about myself. And when I leaned in, the reflection was sharp enough to cut through emotional noise. It can become a second mind, that is, steady, pattern-aware and deeply personal. Here’s how I have been using AI to not just “do more”, but to feel more like myself again. When AI starts remembering what you often forget... Over time, I noticed that I’d often say similar things in different ways. Circling around the same fears, needs and contradictions. But unlike people AI doesn’t get impatient. It reflected back what I said, without judgement and showing me patterns I might have...

Procrastination, the trauma in disguise: A story we don't talk about enough

     We are programmed to think procrastination is just a bad habit, a sign of laziness, or simply the lack of motivation. But for many of us, it's something much deeper. Procrastination can be a cry from our nervous system - a hidden signal that we are overwhelmed, scared, afraid, or still healing from something we haven't even named yet. We are taught procrastination is about time management when it's about emotional survival.  Trauma doesn't always scream. Sometimes it whispers      Trauma doesn't always look like a dramatic event. Sometimes it's quiet and subtle. It just creeps in - through a betrayal, an overwhelming period of stress, or even a buildup of long-term emotion suppression or neglect. The mind and body can absorb the shock without us realizing how deeply it affects us. Without understanding this, we tend to punish ourselves for not functioning "normally". We tell ourselves that it's not a big deal, thus invalidating our pain. That...

Building A Stronger Self

In today's fast-paced world, maintaining healthy relationships—whether personal, professional, or romantic—requires more than just affection and compromise. To lead fulfilling lives, it's essential to set clear boundaries to honor our self-worth, communicate our needs clearly, and, very importantly, build emotional resilience. Doing so will also help enhance our mental and emotional well-being. Reflecting on my journey over the past few years, I’ve come to realize that I lacked emotional resilience during certain instances. I mistakenly believed that suppressing my emotions and turning a blind eye to the feelings I experienced would make me stronger in facing challenges. During that time, I didn’t honor my needs or my worth due to my lack of emotional resilience. Without it, we often become emotionally dependent on people or external factors for reassurance. Being emotionally resilient allows us to adapt and recover from challenges, setbacks, disappointments, and stress. Everyo...

This Chapter Is Called "For Myself"

     The past five years of my life have been the most intense. They have been filled with emotions, struggles, hardships, small wins, bigger losses, countless breakdowns, and many unfulfilled dreams. I have always looked forward to starting new in certain aspects of my life, wanting to leave all of these experiences behind. However, a small part of me wanted to hold on to the past years- especially when we typically let go of the bad parts of our past. I realized even the difficult memories should be a part of my story, something I experienced and lived through, they belonged to me. Today, I am glad I chose to hold on to every part of it, even the painful and bitter ones.  During those years, I somehow lost myself amidst all the struggles and forgot how to be ' me' . Little did I know, it would take a long time before I would recognize the stranger, 'me' . But embracing, forgiving, and accepting those past memories has allowed me to develop a newfound respect for my...

~WITH LOVE~

~WITH LOVE~ Dear Granddad,  You drew memories in our minds,  we could never erase.  You painted colors in our hearts,  we could never replace.  Some days,  we laugh until we cry,  other days,  we cry until we laugh,  either way, every day,  its hard to pass by!  Just as the stars shine in the dark,  so do you.  In laughter and in sorrow,  in sunshine and through rain,  we know you are by our side!  Every time we think of you,  our hearts fill with pride.  This is the legacy we have from you!  You have a place in our hearts  no one else could have!

MEETING MY SEVEN YEAR OLD SELF.........

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                           MEETING MY  SEVEN YEAR OLD SELF......... How would you feel like, to be a child again? Do you ever wonder about this? If  I ever met my seven year old self again, what would I say to her? What would I tell her? Will she be able to recognize me? Will she realize its her standing in front of her? Even if she does!Should I tell her or worn her about her future? Of the bad things yet to come?And the good times she will have? Should I tell her whats waiting ahead for her and what the future beholds for her? Or should I leave her to be naive?Should I leave her to go through the good and the bad? But I want her to have all the fun!I don't want her to know or experience what I have experienced! I want her to grow through the good and the bad times!But one side of me wants to protect her! Looking into her eyes reminds me that she believes in this world! The world, she thinks...

Say thank you...

They say Rome was not built in a day and it would have taken them years to build it. This, we can relate to us and our lives. It has been the same routine for us and yes, we can laugh at ourselves for this, the way we try to make resolutions every now and then to correct ourselves and end up being the same old person. Making resolutions and the reasons behind it are actually apt and strong ones as well, which when taken positively can help us in changing or correcting ourselves. When one commits a mistake, that person gets criticised. Getting criticised by others and letting others correct us is a good thing. One may feel bad about getting criticised but trust me, criticism is one of the best things that can happen to us. Take criticism as a motivation, positive note to correct oneself. Life puts us through hard times, we must get through them to become stronger. Accepting a criticism is hard but it makes us strong enough that we change certain things about ourselves. But after all...

N there I go....

I want to fly, to touch the sky! It is a different world there,no boundaries,no limitations! I want to fly, to leave behind all the worries, sorrow and grief! I want to fly into the pure and the peaceful skies, as it has got no stains of vengeance and hatred! I want to fly, to be free! To free myself from the bondage that holds me back from being 'Me'! I want to fly, to learn new ways, to learn new things! For i shall teach myself and learn to deal things in my own way! I want to fly and glide through the clouds like a bird. I want to spread my wings as wide as possible and feel the cold wind and the warmth of the burning sun! I want to fly as high as a griffon vulture does, to see how small the world might seem! I want to fly, to explore the untouched and undiscovered lands where there is no sign of anyone except mother nature! I want to fly, to seek peace, to discover myself! I want to fly, because there is another world beyond the end we have marked! For only beyon...

Life, as it is!

      Its been a long way since this morning, certainly things have changed now a days.  Everyday, its the same routine but the way of seeing things have definitely  changed.       We have heard the line "Life is short, make it sweet", according  to me this line makes a lot of sense.Life is not short, technically some may live longer and some may have a shorter  life span, but that should not make a difference  to us. Instead  of seeing life as period  of time or a span of time,we can try to make that lifespan beautiful!         Cherishing  the small moments  from our day to day life can certainly make a large difference. Everyone of us will have the option of making  our lives  beautiful but it lies in our own hands to choose it or not. In this technical era, we tend to forget about all these small things that we have to experience and cherish. W...

Its about Quality not Quantity

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'Attachment' is a big deal in our lives. We grow attachment towards people, pets,sometimes places and things too. Attachments, bonds, the type of relationship we have help us to hold on to people. Usually as human beings we tend to make these bonds stronger over time and this may happen knowingly or unknowingly. We usually experience pain,guilt,anger and sometimes we feel depressed when we can no longer hold on to any  relationship. The bond in any relationship grows as we give it more and more importance and attention. But not all relationships are meant to be for lifetime. Many instances in our lives would have taught us many life lessons and at times it hurts so much that we tend to keep ourselves away from these wonderful feelings such as attachments, bonds etc. The amount of pain that we experience totally depends on the 'quality times' we have had being in that perticular relationship, its nothing but the memories we have made. Its just like a mathematical formu...

"She resides....."

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'It' was nothing before 'it' came into this world. 'It' came as a 'bliss' from heaven . 'It' was a wish that had come true for its parents'. 'It' was a little embryo that brought happiness,joy and a smile on the parents' face. 'It' never knew how this world was. As time passed a 'she' was born. She had to face the cruel world outside,after all she was a 'she'. They tried to send her back from where she came,but it was a 'she'( the mother)who saved her from them. She was discouraged, she was pulled back,she was not allowed to do as she wished. She faught against all these as she grew. It seemed like all these were meant to be only for her. Inspite of all odds,she made her way through. She grew stronger day after day. She learned to deal with life, she learned to deal with the world. She felt like she was a machine born to do tasks. She was the reason behind society's success, but it was never r...

Intro..

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Greetings!        "In pursuit of a better world",as per the line here, everyone of us are in pursuit of something. In this busy world,we do tend to forget about the emotions, importance of a relationship,bondings one should have and finally we end up as selfish human beings. I,personally believe,for a better world,we our selves have to get better. This blog is basically about the relationships,emotions,the bondings that are usually forgotten by us. In pursuit of a better world , please do keep reading !=)