This Chapter Is Called "For Myself"

    The past five years of my life have been the most intense. They have been filled with emotions, struggles, hardships, small wins, bigger losses, countless breakdowns, and many unfulfilled dreams. I have always looked forward to starting new in certain aspects of my life, wanting to leave all of these experiences behind. However, a small part of me wanted to hold on to the past years- especially when we typically let go of the bad parts of our past. I realized even the difficult memories should be a part of my story, something I experienced and lived through, they belonged to me. Today, I am glad I chose to hold on to every part of it, even the painful and bitter ones. 

During those years, I somehow lost myself amidst all the struggles and forgot how to be 'me'. Little did I know, it would take a long time before I would recognize the stranger, 'me'. But embracing, forgiving, and accepting those past memories has allowed me to develop a newfound respect for myself.

The takeaway from this, in my perspective, is: only when you embrace every part of your story can you learn to truly forgive yourself and love yourself for who you are at your core. Whether good or bad, the experiences in your life are uniquely yours. To learn from them and appreciate them is up to you and no one else. No matter what or how many setbacks life brings you, only you can teach yourself to grow and heal. Embracing, loving, teaching, and healing myself has allowed me to slowly find myself again.
I would love to share my experiences and thoughts through this healing journey of mine and would love to hear yours. Let's heal together, in pursuit of ourselves. 

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